PLEASE HELP ME IM IN LOVE WITH OLDER MEN plz help?

im 14, and i love guys with long hair, tattoos, you know bikers, but no offense but just not that fat ones. even motley crue, iron maiden ect. ohh and i fofogt to mention i like them to bo 40+ i know its disgusting for a 14 yr old girl to even say that but i cant help it, my hole life ive been brought up with thoses types of guys because of the music i listen to and i know its illegal for a 14 and 40 yr old to date, but even the 18 yr odl ones with tattoos and things liek that just dont do it for me. i like them mature, please help what do i do im in love with older men?